You know what

your freakin' GORGEOUS....... but thats all.

Really?

Really? really?
Am I really doing this again?
Letting the same lies creep back in
how the hell did I end up here,
how did these intentions reappear,
no way that I'm going that far,
not now that I know who you are,
or better yet how you are,
Really? really?
I really dont understand,
this whole situation is damned,
this is the kind of vibe I cant stand,
yet I'm eating out of your hand,
but dont worry you havent won.,
the battle isnt done
I wont let you have your fun,
its almost over hun,
Really? really?
you really didnt see this coming?
all these tunes that i've been humming.
every word is about you,
and all the shit you put me through,
there is only one thing left to do,
i need to forget you.
erase the good times and the bad,
let it fade like a fad,
flush out all the tears,
all the sentimental fears,
all the promises and laughs,
that are now broken and didnt last,
what came so quickly went so fast,
now your just a memory in my past.
that I will erase at last

Really? Really? Really?
        REALLY.

HELLO LA!!!!!

a brand new soul to an already crowded terrain,

good vibes bad vibes and the feeling of change,

nobody there that i have to answer to,

nobody to tell me what to do,

a pocket full of love and advice,

one chance to act and make it right,

an opportunity to reinvent myself

decide what i want to keep and what will be shelved,

no income, no money, no food,

no authority, no rules, no you,

constant victory and the occasional defeat,

a life that tastes so bitter-sweet,

locking away things that you need,

spending all you have just to be,

one step closer to the image of yourself in your mind,

gaining tunnel vision and leaving the past behind,

full of hope and control, and destiny,

where freedom flows like a sea,

no the only one to hold me back is me,

the only person that i cannot cheat,

Hello LA, hello new home, hello lack of being secure,

hello change, hello self evolution, hello future

Thats No Way To Say Goodbye

Shell

I feel like my body is just a shell for the person I really am, no age, no height, no built defines me, its just a shell. But I also feel like the more you embrace your shell, the better you will be at letting than inner self out, through expression.


 Expression of music, fashion, attitude, love, personality, family/friends. Its all there.


 long story short its all about love and art, And I am addicted to both.

A New Beginning.

I have this perfect picture in my mind of exactly who and how and what I want to be, and I know im not there yet, but I'm more that person today than I was yesterday.  I am ready to take another step towards becoming that person, and what an opportunity I have been given to do so.

I move to L.A. this coming monday, and as excited as I am, I cant help but be honest with myself and be a little scared.

None the less I have never been more ready, this is my time to decide what people are going to see in me when they first meet me, instead of who they think I am based on what they knew of my adolescent self.

I am having a self evolution and it feels soooo good. I might make mistakes, and fail at things, but you only lose if you dont fight.

 future, I am ready to create you.

LETS ALL LOVE EACH OTHER